Monday, October 30, 2006

43 things

I joined today. I am in love with the concept. My first entry was about my goal of not worrying about what people think of me.

"It's my grandmother's fault...and my mother's too. When I was growing up, that was their justification for everything. You can't go out wearing that, you can't date that person, you can't not go to church, blah blah blah. Why? Always because of what people will think. Now my life is dominated by that thought. What will people think? As I've grown older, I realize that most people aren't thinking of me at all and this is really pressure that I am putting on myself and projecting onto others. Much the same way my mother and grandmother projected their self inflicted pressure onto us and others. Realizing what the problem is is the easy part. Undoing 33 years of conditioning is going to take some work."

Of course, my uncreative butt could not think of 43 things. So far I only have 7. Some of which are interrelated so it's still really one goal even though I've tried to stretch it into more. I am so lame.

Stop caring what other people think of me
write my autobiography
remodel/redecorate my house
landscape my yard
accept myself
find a career I love
Become an Esthetician

Monday, October 16, 2006

Was college a complete waste of time?

Apparently, I am not the only one who thinks my Business degree is worthless...

"Your article is still flooding me with past anger I have toward corporate America's hiring practices. You touched on it lightly but that is the real reason these kids are not able to sufficiently pay back their loans. Although I did not rack up any college debt, I have been a victim of their hiring tactics and different discriminations. I would have also argued, this is the biggest reason education ought to be free. Like with health care, other countries seem to be able to offer these services to their citizens at no charge, with a cheaper overall tax system than our country has. This is because these semi-socialist countries are not subsidizing and policing the world and going to war over those subsidizations and generally sticking our red, white and blue collective nose where it does not belong. I would also like to discuss how skewed the unemployment rate is and if college is even worth going to, especially if you're majoring in business. -- Steve, Smyrna

This letter appeared in the 10/11/6 Edition of Creative Loafing. It's funny that Steve refers to his "past anger". It sounds like you're still pretty angry to me Steve. I will have to write about my frustation with having such a generic degree when I am not in such a melancholic mood.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006


Well, I've decided to volunteer for CASA. The application is question and answer and I've had it for over a month. Still not done with it. I know they can't pick just anybody but, geez do you need help or not? I almost didn't fill it out when I saw how long it was. I'm taking deep breaths and reminding myself that nothing worthwhile is easy.