Friday, December 29, 2006

Joshua

Here is my positive thought for the year: No matter what is going in your life and no matter how bad you think things are, it can always be worse. On the ride in to work this morning, one of the ladies in my van pool decided to tell us about her grandson who only spent 54 days on this Earth. Joshua was born with all sorts of health problems and fought valiantly for almost two months. She says that he would have been 15 now had he lived. Their family still struggles with his death. I can't imagine the pain of having to deal with a dying or dead child and it makes everything else in my life (and life in general) seem so minute. I am sad for her family, especially Joshua's mother but, I am glad that she told me the story because it helped me gain perspective. No one I know is dying, I am gainfully employed, I have a wonderful husband. I won't say that my aspirations for 2007 is to be little Ms. Sunshine but, I will strive to maintain perspective. Joshua will be my inspiration. I am sure he was and would have been a beautiful child.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Sugar

I have this thing about sugar. When I decided to lose my excess weight once and for all, I decided to follow a diet plan that required I give up sugar in all its forms. I probably eat a piece of cake about 3 or 4 times a year and have gotten to a point where I don't really crave it. Of course, today is Christmas and I've had two pieces of luscious homemade chocolate cake. I will spend the rest of the day trying to convince myself that I won't wake up in the morning 10 pounds heavier because I indulged in some cake today. Oh, how I miss those days when I ate unconsciously and never really thought or worried about what I ate. Sure, I was 40 pounds heavier but, at least my mind was at peace. Food has become yet another source of angst for me.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Progress

Slowly, but surely, we are making progress on our master bathroom. The cabinets are painted and the new hardware has been added. I just finished taking down the old stuff in my husband's closet and painting it from top to bottom. The ceiling was dingy, the walls full of holes and looked like they only had primer on them, and the base boards got a fresh new coat too. Here are some pics.

The first pic is my husband's closet before. The dingy white walls and ceiling just weren't cute. The one closet rod you see in the picture is all there was to hang clothes so there was a lot of wasted space. The after pictures shows the closet with the wall painted. I mixed 2 quarts of sample paint that I got when I was trying to pick a color for the wainscot to get the color for the wall...Benjamin Moore's Scenic Desert and Subtle Ivory. My husband has yet to put up his new shelving but, I'll post some pics when he does that.


Here are some pictures of the sink cabinets. I eventually chose a Benjamin Moore color called Ladyfinger to paint the cabinets and the wainscot but depending on how the light hits it, I'm having a love/hate relationship with my color choice. I'll wait and see how it looks when the whole bathroom is done. The second picture shows the wainscot that we already applied around the toilet painted in the same Ladyfinger color. We wanted to continue the color all around the bathroom so we chose to paint the cabinets the same color. Somehow, the color looks different to me on the wainscot than on the cabinets. Perhaps because the cabinets were previously painted white and the wainscot was bare wood that was primed before the paint was applied. Maybe a couple more coats will cure that. We'll see. The last picture is a close up of the pulls I chose.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Only in the South?

Check out this video on youtube. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aBxqv-MwMeA Apparently, a church in Canton, GA thinks this is a good way to get people to come to their Christmas Eve service. The pastor is the one in the red and white track suit....the biggest cut up of them all, with the guy in the Santa suit running a close second. It's hilarious!

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Angst

Angst is a constant part of my life. There was a time when I could make decisions and not struggle with what I chose. Nowadays, every decision is a struggle. Even something as simple as which toothpaste to buy takes up 10 minutes in the grocery store. The latest decision that is causing me extreme anxiety that I may be making the wrong choice is an interview that I have this afternoon. I see myself walking into a scenario that I have repeated so many times. One of my goals is to find a job closer to home and closer to my husband. This job will add at least 15 minutes to my commute and is in the opposite direction from my husband. I want a job in a field that interests me. This job is with an insurance company. Can you feel my excitement? This job is with a large corporation. I have already determined that the corporate world is not for me.

Nevertheless, the constant struggle between what I want to do and my overwhelming sense of obligation and commitment has made this decision difficult. I have already made a commitment with this company to be there on this day at a certain time and by golly, I will be there even though I know it is a complete waste of time. Mine and theirs. It seems like a no brainer when I really think about it but I know that if I cancel this interview, I will feel bad about not keeping my commitment and when I am having a really bad day at work, I will wonder what could have been if I had just gone on that interview.

The good news is that since I really don't want the job, I won't feel pressured to go in there and act like Ms. Perfect. It will be a lot easier to be myself. I'm not writing down questions to ask and I'm not memorizing the company's last annual statement.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

The lameness continues...

I got all the way to work yesterday and realized I had on two different shoes! They weren't even the same or similar color. One was black and one was tan. Who does that?!! I have never been more horrified.