Friday, March 23, 2007

What's worse?

Knowing that your child was killed or knowing that they were tortured emotionally and sexually before being strangled? I can accept death. I just can't accept violent death....especially when the victims are children. What kind of mind assaults and kills a child? How can this person be called human? I have always felt that to kill another human being (unless in self defense), you have to see them as less than human. I think that explains how a lot of people have no problem killing others but will fight to the end to avoid the death penalty for themselves. Because somehow, in their mind, their life is more valuable. When I read stories like this, I wonder how destiny factors into all of this. To a certain extent, some events in our lives are destined to occur. Death is one of them. From the day we are born, our death is determined and everything will align itself to ensure that it is carried out. It was no coincidence that this family of pedophiles moved across the street from this child that they were destined to kill. When its your time, its your time. I just hate how this child suffered.

I guess the larger question is what should society do with pedophiles? To kill a child 3 days after you're placed on probation shows a clear lack of self control and concern for others. If they don't understand what a danger they are to others and honestly feel like they can successfully assimilate back into society, there are many cases that prove them wrong. I am against the death penalty but somehow, I want a front row seat to the exectution of these 3.

Sunday, March 11, 2007


So, I started this Lent Challenge with some of my Low Carb Friends. I'm not even Catholic but, for the 40 to 45 days of Lent, I've chosen to give up anything that is artificially sweetened and my beloved fruit. I chose them because the artificial sweetener at least is something that I have wanted to give up for a long time and I just couldn't bring myself to do. The fruit I threw in because Lent is about sacrificing and as much as I love fruit, I have serious portion control issues with it. I did this to give myself some perspective.

Imagine my surprise when I hopped on the scale last Friday and saw that I had lost 3 pounds. Could it be just because I gave up artificial sweetener? I have been going through my Fitday to try and figure out what I did because I was actually eating more (at least it felt like it) because I couldn't snack. It's really a shame that all of my snacks are either artificially sweetened or fruit. I've since substituted with nuts and cheese, soy flaxseed tortillas from Trader Joes, or hummus and raw veggies. The week that I lost the 3 pounds was the week I ate macadamia nuts. They're the fattiest nuts ever but it's good fat so I wonder if eating more fat helped me lose those pounds.

We started this on Feb. 21 and I still can't believe how well I've been doing. I have been eating the occasional piece of dark chocolate but since it's not artificially sweetened, technically I am allowed to eat it. I've been using stevia to sweeten and drinking Yerba Mate instead of coffee. I still have the occasional cup of coffee but not every day like I did before. Since I can't really sweeten it the way I'd like, I just don't drink it. The fruit has been more of a challenge because I love it so much. I haven't had one bite though. It kills me to walk through the produce section at the grocery store but I just pick up my veggies and keep going. I also took my sugar free stash out of the pantry and placed it on the dining room table. I did not realize how much of that stuff I had until I separated it from my real food. Almost halfway through this and I realize that I will have to make some changes when this is over. Most of my sugar free stuff is not even nutritious food. It's junk food that I don't need anyway. I really want to develop some healthier habits when this is over.