Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Thanksgiving Blessings

We're back from vacation. I'll complain about the cruise later but I had my first ultrasound today and wanted to share my Thanksgiving blessing.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Mixed Bag

When the thought of updating my blog occurred to me earlier today, it was going to be a positive post about the baby's progress and our upcoming vacation. I'll still mention that but I just want to vent a little first about my frustrations for the week. I HATE COLUMBUS!

1. The worst drivers I have ever encountered are here in Columbus and I drove around Atlanta for 10 years! They're either driving like they're asleep and moving at the speed of a turtle or they're doing something ridiculously stupid like changing lanes -often with no blinker- when you're right next to them.

2. Why is it that I, as a non-smoker and a pregnant woman, can't drive anywhere without someone around me smoking. Every single time I am in my car, which is several times a day, the driver in front, behind, or to the side of me is smoking! I don't want to inhale that crap and neither does my baby!

3. What kind of restaurant calls itself "Country's" yet doesn't serve mac & cheese? They've got all the barbecued onions and fried pickles you can eat, but macaroni and cheese? Why you'll have to come back on Thursday for that.

OK, I'm done. The longer I live here, the more I hate it. We'll have to apologize to our child for him/her being born in this backward place.

Anyway, on to more positive things, the baby and I had a much better week this week. I can't say the cravings have stopped completely but they are not as intense and frenzied as before. I actually was able to wait two days before giving into the mac & cheese craving. That would not have been the case a few weeks ago. I also had more energy this week and I've been coming home and working out instead of taking a nap. My clothes are slowly getting tighter but they still fit thank goodness. I am not ready to start shopping for maternity clothes yet. I can barely decide what to put in my baby registry at Target.

We're going on our long awaited vacation tomorrow....a Caribbean cruise. We took our first cruise last year and this will be our third cruise. We are just hooked on them. It looks like we'll have to cancel our cruise for next year though because the baby won't be old enough to go with us and I won't leave our barely 5 month old baby for a whole week no matter how willing to babysit my MIL is.

Friday, November 07, 2008

Who writes these things?

I've immersed myself in pregnancy books that so far are a bit of a disappointment. What is really annoying about them is that they stress eating healthy, which I normally do, without taking into account that during the first trimester, eating healthy is dang near impossible. I have had constant nausea almost from the beginning and many of the foods that I normally eat with abandon are nauseating to me. I have a big jar of cashews that I can't even stand to look at, much less eat. Yogurt was a daily staple. Now, the sour smell and taste seem to have magnified 100x. I can't stomach it.

The only healthy foods I seemed to have maintained my taste for are mainly protein, fruit, and milk. I only seem to have an appetite for ground beef. The thought of eating a steak makes me feel like throwing up. I also can't seem to eat anything I don't have a taste for. So far, I've spent one week in Wendy's eating just their chicken sandwich patties slathered with mayonnaise- no bread- and chicken nuggets. This week it's eating salami, boiled eggs, and tuna like there's no tomorrow. The books are written as though you should just eat healthy anyway. I would love to but that seems impossible right about now. I don't know what's worse constantly feeling like you're going to throw up and never throwing up or throwing up all the time. Some days, like today, my nausea is pretty bad and I'm tempted to make myself throw up thinking that the nausea will go away if I throw up. But I know better. It won't go away.

My breasts have also become so swollen and tender that it's hard to get a good night's sleep unless I lay on my back the entire time. Of course, when I get up and gravity hits them, OUCH! I've learned to get up very slowly and hold them in place with my arms until I've adjusted to standing up. My mom suggested sleeping with a bra on...of course, none of them fit properly anymore...and that seems to help. I can't seem to work up the energy to work out either....or even clean the house. It's getting annoying. I've lost count of the number of days I've come home and picked out my workout, only to fall asleep. I know this stage is temporary but I can't wait for it to be over.

I'm going to be a momma!

So my gyno confirmed about 2 weeks ago that I am pregnant. It's hard for me to keep up with the count but I think I'm wrapping up my 9th week now. I'm still in a state of disbelief that I will be someone's mommy. I'm excited and fearful about that. My own childhood was anything but normal. I'm so afraid that I'll be a like my mom. I love my mom and I know she did her best but, she was not a good mother. I'm torn every time I say that because she raised all 5 of us and 4 of us turned out OK. I don't know if that means that things weren't really as bad as they seemed or if we're just resilient. I know that I could never do or say to my child some of the things that were said and done to me and my siblings but I still worry. I have seen other people's children exhibit behavior that I know I would have no patience for. Everyone wants to think their child will be different but I know my child will be the typical child...trying to get away with whatever he/she can. I tend to have a no-nonsense demeanor anyway that I hope my child picks up on intuitively as he/she gets older. We'll see.

It's so cute. I've started calling the baby "she" and my husband calls the baby "he". We're still not sure if we want to know the sex of the baby before he/she is born. I've resisted buying anything or even looking at baby stuff because this all still feels so weird. I finally broke down yesterday and bought these cute onesies at Big Lots.