Today is the first day of the A to Z Blogging Challenge. I took inspiration from the challenge creator's kick-off post and will write about ambition.
Ambition can be described as drive, motivation, aspiration, or desire. I used to see myself as ambitious but I don't anymore. When I graduated high school, my ambition was to go to college to become a fashion designer and ultimately live a glamorous life in Paris. Instead, I ended up in Alaska for six months and joined the military in frustration after not finding the kind of work I desired. The military took me to Anniston Alabama, Seoul Korea, Clarksville Tennessee, and finally, Hinesville Georgia. By the time I got out of the military, I couldn't remember what my initial ambitions were and had somehow picked up a husband along the way. Marriage was not on my original list of aspirations either. After the military, I went to college and earned a degree in business administration knowing all the while that a business degree was not in my original plan. And so, as a result of not following my ambitions, I have lived the past ten years of my career spending eight hours a day with my butt planted in a chair, staring at a monitor, and typing on a keyboard. I am forced to participate in inane office conversations about the weather, weekend plans, or someone's new outfit or hairstyle all for the sake of maintaining workplace harmony. I am clearly not office worker material but somehow, here I sit. Every day. From 8:00 to 5:00.
My ambition now is to get through the day without strangling one of my coworkers for starting yet another inane conversation or asking an unbelievably dumb question. I dream about getting home from work and just plopping on the couch with my two best friends, Ben & Jerry. That's pretty difficult to do with a toddler. I constantly hope that my husband will realize that the perfect gift for me is a maid. Although, I know I have so much to be thankful for in my life now, I still regret not going to California to become a fashion designer in 1992 and I still dream of Paris. This is a cautionary tale. Listen to your inner voice. Stay true to your ambitions and desires.